"Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon."

Tomorrow is Blayze's Halloween shindig/parade. He requested that I "make something sweet"... lately I've been once again on a cheesecake kick sooooo I decided why not cupcake sized cheesecakes & instead of smashing up oreos for the base we decided to use entire Oreos. They came out pretty cool. I'm not too happy with the whip cream color, I couldn't get it orange enough =/

Finished product

What the inside looks like =]

overall I think they look a bit sloppy but the kids aren't going to judge that critically haha

“There is no feeling more comforting and consoling than knowing you are right next to the one you love.”

So it's been ages. Recently celebrated my one year anniversary. Nothing extravagant just dinner with some friends & a homemade treat for my babe.

"Edible Diabetes"

Oreo/Graham cracker crust, 2 cheesecake layers one chocolate the other regular with 2 cups of sweetened strawberries. Homemade whip cream, sweetened sliced strawberries, cocoa powder & melted chocolate drizzle on top.

Oh & we got pictures done!

 

 

oh how I love him. he amazes me. My next entry will most likely be about these Oreo Cheesecake cupcakes I'm going to make for my sons' Halloween party at school. =] I love baking!

“They may forget what you said, but they will never forget how you made them feel.”

A rather fun photo shoot all in all...

"A good friend will come bail you out of jail, but a true friend will be sitting next to you saying...'Damn, that was fun!"

The night of the bonfire for Tyler's birthday bash was chaotic, & fun... up until my bf and a few others' were arrested... I haven't had the desire to write since. He's out now, and I'm content enough that I feel that desire returning to me, but only a little at a time. It's odd how in times of need those you'd least expect are by your side while the ones who should be stay blissfully obtuse to what's occuring, or just flat out don't care...

"Assumptions are the termites of relationships"

After being denied my carnal needs for several days & nights I finally exploded and it caused a rather large fight between David & I. To the point where I left the house to cool off, only went to OfficeMax & In N Out but it was none the less the first time it has ever been bad enough that I needed to leave the house to cool down, typically it's him that needs to do that. We talked things out when I picked him up and realized most of the issues is simply all the drama currently going on at home. We lounged around the house most of the day up until the time when Blayze got out of school when we met up and hung with Paris for a bit and chatted. Bella grabbed the kids while we talked and then Blayze played in the grass with Bella, Annaleia and a few other kids. We hung out with Ces & learned she is moving back to Cali on Saturday, we kinda got into it over him not allowing me to go over to her house to get some of said frustration out, finally got him to agree to a little fun and ended up staying up for several hours until we both passed out from exhaustion & completely sated =] mmm love my gorgeous boyfriend.

“Photography takes an instant out of time, altering life by holding it still.”

Got the edits of Blayze, Hunter & I =]

Blayze & Hunter

Walking the owner, lol

Mommy's prince charming

He's a momma's boy =]

 & then because the munchkin & puppy got bored & wanted to run around we took some random portfolio shots...

Love the background

My new favorite

My bestie & I =]

& from these randoms Cesca & I decided to plan a shoot together sometime in the near future. yay

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1.03.01

"Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get -- only with what you are expecting to give -- which is everything"

Haven't updated in a bit. Been realllllly busy. Finally convinced Kitty to let me help her with the wedding so I've made the invites, rsvp & table placement card & helped tie up the invites to be sent out =]

Front (printed on gold paper)

Back (printed on gold paper)

her theme is fairy/chinese... a complicated one but she loved the invites lol.

End result

We were both COVERED in glitter after wrapping all the invites. so was the table and anything that we touched hahaha.

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1.03.01

"Chaste to her Husband, frank to all beside, A teeming Mistress, but a barren Bride"

Had another bbq at 'Cesca's. Just burgers and chips. At first it was pretty lame. We picked up Luke and headed to 'Cesca's and waited for everyone to show up. It was pretty fun, Court & Caytie, James, Simon, Hamly, Starks, Jessica & Sheena DeGrace & a couple others came. It was really cool to see Jessica & Sheena because I've known them since we were in elementary school together. Starks brought Capt. so I had a few drinks and just socialized, didn't even get in the pool until well into the night. 'Cesca made it very awkward for me when she started hooking up with Simon in plain sight of James, it was fucked up, he left all butt hurt to which I felt bad, but he knew what they were from the very beginning so he was at fault as well. As the night progressed everyone learned how very unshy 'Ces & I can be, and then I just got bored with the whole situation & went to sleep on the lounge chair while everyone else socialized. Simon & her went back to her apartment & fucked while Hamly slept & David, Starks & I watched PotC2... I was a little peeved at 'Ces because she'd only known Simon for 2 days and she's making a bad reputation for herself within my group of friends. Which I guess is out of my hands so oh well... headed home around 4am and crashed out after talking with David about how it seems she is trying to make him jealous with some of her comments, or getting us into fights which is just plain annoying.

Woke up this morning & David wasn't feeling well, took a nap and spent most of the day in bed resting or txting people. Picked up Blayze from Kris's and found out that Hunter had been scratched by one of the other dogs, was slightly pissed off about it. Bought some KFC & now I'm just watching David play Fallout and relaxing. Going to the Mandalay Bay tomorrow to lay out and swim, I am rather excited about that

"Real friendship is shown in times of trouble"

Yesterday was the first at home game so 'Ces, David & I went to the tailgates. Spent several hours getting ready and ended up having to pick up someone I'd now wish I hadn't. It was ridiculously hot outside so 'Ces & I spent most of the time sitting in the shade under Nick BTW's truck. Oddly enough when Ashley showed up, whom I thought would make it awkard due to her past with David and the tension that is always there between us it was actually an enjoyable experience, we talked and she vented some stuff to me, and stuck up for me when Koolaid put me in a very awkward situation by grabbing at my ass. After the tailgates we went to 'Cesca's to cue, quite a few people showed up, everyone I can remember includes, Ces, David, Hamly, Pearson, Koolaid, Gene, Simon, Melanie, Starks, Pearson's gf & her friend, and like 5 or 6 other people that I don't really remember lol. Ces & I headed to her house around midnight because we both had headaches and I was annoyed by Koolaid's behavior towards me because all in one night he insulted me by calling me a bitch, insinuating I was a slut, literally grabbing food out of my hands... taking a bite and then saying I didn't need to eat so much anyway & that I could afford to lose a few pounds. oh... and what took the fuckin' cake was me being informed it was he who stole the Jagermeister from me on my bday... some people are just so scandalous.

"Childhood is the most beautiful of all life's seasons"

Haven't written in several days, this week was chaotic what with Blayze starting school and all.

First day of 1st grade

Lego Batman backpack =]

Went shopping for him on Sunday & he got 2 pairs of new shoes (Ironman & some blue skater type shoes), a new Batman Lego shirt & jeans, as well as a new Batman lego backpack, he didn't really need a lot, he gets new clothes & shoes all the time. So far he's had a great first week, making friends and getting to know his classmates & teachers. The day before school Blayze & Hunter had a mini photoshoot together and the pictures came out great, I'm excited to see the edits though =]

Blayze & Hunter

Blayze & I

Hunter had his 2nd set of shots the other day, even the vet said he's a strong little boy, he didn't whine or anything. He is such a well behaved puppy. I've decided I'm going to start working out again, I guess 'Ces wants to with me as well, I'm not out of shape per say but I'd like to do some toning. -sigh- so bored, I think I'm gonna go shower & take a nap with my babe <3

"What we imagine as order is merely the prevailing form of chaos."

Last night after visiting my dad in the hospital while he was in recovery David, 'Cesca, Blayze & I decided to BBQ. The night started off rather uneventful, just watching movies & hanging out. Up until David started drinking and announced his ex gf was coming over to hang out. I'm rather insecure as it is, and he speaks highly of this girl so I view her as a threat... however I wasn't given much choice in the matter and shortly thereafter she showed up with one of her friends... it's awkward as hell and her friend is a bitch. To which Ces is getting upset and waiting for them to say something stupid. I got Blayze to lay down and then I went back downstairs to tell David I'd like to go home... & a fight ensues.. I have no clue what I did to trigger it and he was saying it's always his fault, I didn't even know we were fighting until he was saying peace out to me, he didn't want to leave & was staying there. He needs to understand I have responsibilities & even though Blayze was asleep that he should be in his bed. I finally got him into the truck and we argued the entire way home, he was saying he's gonna sleep on the floor etc. We drop of Ces and head home, finally got there and he gets Blayze out of the truck... not even 5 minutes into the house he's apologizing, telling me I need to leave him alone when he's upset and kissing me... Needless to say I was extremely confused. I go to bed and Blayze and him make some late night snack and he gets Blayze ready for bed... I get woken up, make your own assumptions as to what happens then.

& he says I have mood swings lol

“I dropped a tear in the ocean, and whenever they find it I'll stop loving you, only then.”

Went to San Diego to see my friend 'Cesca's mom, haven't seen her since high school. Got to go to the beach as well... it was a nice mini vacation

La Jolla Cove/Seal Beach & Coronado Beach

only one seal on seal beach =/ 

"One must desire something to be alive"

Dad went in for surgery on his heart today... everything is so chaotic right now. Feels like everything is falling apart... and I did want to write, but now I've lost the drive to do so. oh well.

Seems like every time we make a step forward we take three steps back... just wish it all would end and start making sense.